Where the hell have I been? I’m really not used to being this busy! It seems like ever since I moved away from State College and Rehoboth Beach, I lost a little bit of my writing skills. I suppose maybe it’s also a little bit of writer’s block as well. Either way, I miss it. There’s so many times throughout the day that I want to jot something down or I think to myself, “I need to write about this.”
Lately I have been thinking a ton about a certain subject; the future.
1.the time or a period of time following the moment of speaking or writing; time regarded as still to come. (When you Google it)The time or a period of time following the moment of speaking or writing; time regarded as still to come.Now, I don’t mean to get to philosophical here, because honestly the future has the potential to open up a giant can of worms and other discussions. We could talk about the importance of building your future, making something happen, planning, or something even as deep as destiny. Since we were in first grade or even younger, we were always asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?.”In all honesty, it’s really annoying how majority of our futures are defined by money or what we do for a living. Are you going for further schooling? Will you get that promotion? Blah, blah, blah. Don’t get me wrong, being able to support yourself in this world that we live in today is extremely important as well as a MAJOR accomplishment. I don’t think what you do to support yourself is as important as we all make it out to be. Whether you’re a top CEO of a company, an artist, or working three different jobs just to pay rent, you’re doing it. You’re making a living. This is the first time in my life that I’m paying all of my bills without any outside help, and it feels awesome.What do you think about when you think about your future? To be honest, when I think about my future, I get stressed out. I stress because I may be losing a job that I love in November. I make more money than ever before and for once I’m not living paycheck to paycheck. Money aside, I don’t wake up hating the fact that I have to go to work. I love what I do, and every day is a new experience. I don’t sit in a cubical behind a computer screen or wear a headset. What do I do? I teach, I play, I show affection. I’m a certified nanny for the sweetest 1 year old girl around. I could not be happier with my current situation. Sometimes I hesitate telling people what I do because it seems like I’m not taken seriously. Believe me, it’s not as easy as you would think. Spending 10 hours a day helping to raise a 1 year old is not a piece of cake. It’s a full time job. It’s tiring, but ridiculously important. I’m dealing with a little human being in my hands. The only downfall? They grow up and don’t need you anymore. Never in a million years would I have thought that I’d be doing this after graduating college with a Bachelor’s Degree in Communications Studies. My advice, don’t expect too much of your future. You might end up doing something that you’re not in love with. If you let things just happen, you might stumble across something even better without planning it at all. If you do what you love, you never have to work a day in your life.Back to my future. Since I might be losing my job in a few months, you would think that I’d be freaking out trying to think about what I’m going to do next. Believe me, I went through that phase already. Success is a word that is probably associated with a lot of our futures. You want to be successful with whatever you end up doing. Of course I have a few ideas of what I might do next, but I’m not going to fret about it. That leads to stress. Stress leads to anxiety. Stress and anxiety force you to focus on other things rather than what’s going on with you right now.Right now, I’m happy. To me, happiness is success. When I was in college, I worried so much about graduating and what I was going to do after that, that I ended up missing out on what was going on then. If I could go back in time, I definitely would have spent less time being depressed and focused on how many great things were going on around me.I’m sure there might be some people reading this that disagree with me. Let me clarify something: I’m not saying that looking towards the future is a negative thing. I believe in setting goals for yourself and having dreams…gigantic dreams. If you already reached or surpassed your goals and are planning your next move, then congratulations. Really though, I am happy for you, We just shouldn’t make the future our present. People say to not let your past define you… so why should we allow our futures to do that too?